March 30

I did it.

After she told me she loved me, I couldn’t stop myself. I didn’t want to wait, and Light, I sure didn’t.

Tonight, I surprised her. She looked so pretty, covered head to toe in dirt, even her armor hardly looked black anymore. And the way her goggles made those cute little circles around her eyes…She’s the only woman I’ve ever known that would look good walking around in nothing but mud.

Of course, I had gotten all dressed up. Even shaved, though I get the feeling she prefers it when I got a bit of a beard. I felt kind of dumb when I saw her…looking all perfect and such. I gave her flowers, and then I thankfully managed to get her to put on the blindfold before I brought her out to the cabin…I even rented a chicken just so she wouldn’t make up some excuse to ride her hog.

She loved it, said she couldn’t believe I’d done it for her…The look on her face just told me I had to do it. So I did.

I got down on one knee and told her how I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her, and thank the Light, she said yes!

For a second there, I couldn’t stop thinking about what I’d do if she said no, if she’d finally figured out I wasn’t anywhere good enough for her or if she had decided that it’d be too much trouble watching out for my hide. I know that now that she’s said yes, I’m just going to have to work harder, and train faster. I don’t want her worrying about some idiotic forsaken coming at me with an axe again….

Not that she would. Good girl that she is, the minute she heard that Mel’s head has been messed with, she forgave him…I just wish it was that easy for me. I get that the guy has his issues, fel, anyone who’s died and come back has to have at least a few, but it ain’t that easy to forget nearly getting your head cleaved off or the bruises…

Speaking of which, I got plenty of ‘em. Wasn’t until earlier yesterday morning I finally got all the silver I needed for her ring. Barely got it to the jewelcrafter on time cause a yeti near took my head off. It was worth it, Elly can hardly keep her eye off the thing.

But yeah, some shaman found us out in the cabin. Ain’t got a clue how, considering the guy is blinder than a bat, but he got Elly all riled up and now we’re on our way to Dalaran. It’s a little disappointing, but probably for the best…After all, I don’t think I can keep saying no to her.

It ain’t that I don’t want to…well, do the deed with her. I just don’t want her to regret doing it before she’s ready, before we’re ready. And ma always said that it shouldn’t be done until you’re married, and after finding out all this stuff, I think she’s right. About most things, at least.

Though, I’m getting the feelin she was wrong about the Commander. He ain’t as bad as I thought he was, and ain’t half the demon Ma makes him out to be. If it wasn’t for him, I wouldn’t have had anything to show Elly tonight and I’d still be trading blows with a wooden pole…Jani was right, he ain’t his past.

But I still ain’t sure he’s a father either.

Elly finally stopped snoring, so I’m guessing we must be getting close to Dalaran. I’m surprised she can sleep on these things, gives me the shakes just looking over the side, but she seems to be able to sleep through anything…At least flying death traps nearly crashing. And Light, the girl can fall asleep so fast…
I love her. I dunno if she knows it, but I do.

I know I ain’t known her for that long, but it feels like I’ve known her forever…Just, I didn’t have her there to hold and to kiss.

Miss Elly gives the best kisses.

She’s so kind, and so, well, everything she does she does it her way, not anyone else’s. And she don’t push me to be anything I’m not. I still can’t believe she likes me as I am. I can’t believe she wants to be with me.

After I stayed over the other night, I couldn’t stop thinking about how amazing it was just to be around her, to be there for so long. She don’t know this, but today I went out and bought some land. It ain’t much, barely an acre…but it’s something.

I’m gonna build a home here, an’ maybe once I finish training I can give it to her. And if I’m real lucky, maybe someday she’ll tell me she’s been thinking the same things.

March 20

Ma ain't too happy with me, keeps talkin bout how I nearly gave her a heart attack with all the bruises and scratches I came home with...Though, I'm thinkin it was more the smell, or the blood...

I had to tell her, couldn't make up nothing to excuse walking through the door in torn up armor. She didn't like it one bit, none more when I told her about the Commander. She tried to get me to quit, told her no. It felt right, destroying those creatures...No, that wasn't it...It was helping the others, protecting them. For once, I felt like I could do something right. Felt like I was meant to be there.

I just wish I'd stop having these dreams, nightmares. I keep hearing those undead wailin in my head.
I can't believe it! He threw a damn knife at me! All cause I won't fight, won't walk around drippin blood and crap all the time. I don't see why they want me to fight some bad. Why can't they just see there ain't no purpose in it.

My leg hurts.

March 6

Ma had me bring some of her herbs down south, to Light’s Hope Chapel.

It ain’t the first time she’s had me do deliveries, but normally just down into the Ghostlands. I thought the scourge there were bad, but damn, I swear I saw an abomdamnation fifty feet tall- at least! It had a piece of gut hanging out that was bout as long as ten of me. I wish I could’ve gotten a better look, but I thought myself smarter to get outta there before it hooked me. Momma says some of them can do that.

The paladins there were so amazing, wearing all that plate. I even saw a pretty girl- though, I spose I shouldn’t be thinking of her as pretty. From what I hear, we’re supposed to hate the humans. I always heard they were more stupid than us, but them crusaders seemed to think pretty smart. Mean too, I smiled at her and she gave me a glare so hard it made Dr. Sunkeeper seem like a pup.

Got me to thinking that maybe girls would like me better if I weren’t so scrawny, and fel, might even make lifting that damn hammer easier. So soon as I got home I started working on some armor. Most of it is mail and leather, I gave a pair of plate boots- like the Commander wears- a try. Couldn’t walk in them, so I figured I’d put weights on my shoulders. At first, I kept falling over. Damn near broke my nose a few times, but now I can almost walk twenty minutes without tipping over! Mr. Bloodthorne is gonna be proud of me.

I been getting some muscle on me too, you can almost notice it now. Momma noticed it, thought it curious. I still haven’t told her bout the Vanguard yet, don’t plan to either. She’ll tell me that I’ll get mixed up in a war or something round those lines. I’ll wait until I can make her proud of me for doin it. Maybe after I slay a dragon or something.

I even been practicing with one of those pole arms. They’re easier for me to lift and move than my sword, and don’t cut myself so much when I hit trees. I wonder if Dr. Sunkeeper will keep throwing bombs at me when I’m bigger than him…Stupid old fart.