July 16

Didn’t sleep well last night. Kept having nightmares.

I still ain’t sure what came over me out there, but I couldn’t control it. I remember knocking a tree down and then going off to find something else…anything else, to hurt. Then I saw them.

An orc, looked like an archer by nature, had managed to get further than the rest. Must have been pretty tough, or damn stubborn…I tried to warn him, but two Alliance footmen got to him first. Ran him clean through then took his head clear off just to be sure they’d brought him down…

After that, it was blurry. I charged, killed them both and after that…I’m not sure how many more I got. I’m still not even sure how I got so close to the keep, or what their faces looked like. I don’t even really remember the Commander showing up, wasn’t until I saw Elly sleeping that I really came out of it all.

I pretended to sleep after that, partially to not wake her…partially because I didn’t know what to say if I did. I know it’s silly, that she’s been in plenty of battles and would probably know better than me how to see all this…But I don’t know if I can tell her. I could have stopped after the first kill, could have done the honorable thing and helped fight the Alliance back into their keep…I didn’t though.

I was behind the line of battle, I was tearing a hole through their ranks…I targeted their healers just so the footmen wouldn’t stand a prayer…I think some of them were women…

Worst is, I know it wasn’t because they’re our enemies and it wasn’t with the intent to save our men’s lives…it was because they were something to kill.

-Tears stain the page, and in several areas, the ink is smeared.-

July 15

Tired. So very tired, and so very, very happy.

Elly and I finally got our wedding, I couldn’t believe she agreed to do it…Specially with me bringing it up out of the blue. I know ma is going to throw a hiss fit over it, but that’s alright because everything was just how it was supposed to be.

Midsummer’s Fireworks, out on the waters of Booty Bay. No Calthos. None of ma’s stuck up friends…Even Mel didn’t try to kill me, just threatened me. It was great. And Elly, I’ll be damned if she isn’t the prettiest damn girl on any planet I’ve been to…I love her.

The honeymoon was just as amazing. We spent a week in Winterspring in Elly’s cabin, only going out to eat or for her to play with the cub I bought for her…and the nights…I just wish I could tell her how special she is to me.

Of course, it had to end. I went back to Zangarmarsh for a few days, did about the same work I’ve done for the past few months. Kill naga, guard supplies headed for Terrokar, kill more naga. It’s getting a little mundane…Kinda funny, considering not long ago I would have never thought I’d ever see Outland.

It was all worth it though, I finally got my chance. I ain’t too fond of the fact that I’ll have to be fighting Alliance, but at least I can show them how hard I’ve worked, how much blood and sweat I’ve poured into training with and without my father’s help. I’ll get to show Elly everything I’ve learned, and get to stand beside her as we fight.

This may not be the life I wanted, or expected…But now that I’ve got it, I’d do anything to keep it…